Anger session of the day

[stratlady]

OMG John. That is like the stupidest thing I've ever heard. Wow.

Thank God that your mom knows about all of this. That way, I am sure that everything will be fine; they will trust your mom if they don't trust you.

Good luck with that, and John, don't give up on your passion!!!!

[unicorn07]

^I think if they trusted his mom this would be some what done and over with by now.

A little rant from me...
So, its kind of my fault and I didn't mean to do it. But I had left my headphones to my iPod on my bed because I thought I'd be out of my room for like a couple of minutes....well it was more like an hour and more and I come in and my damn cat chewed through the fucking cords...now I can't listen to my fucking iPod

[nyohah]

My guess is what Robynn said. They're all freaked out about school shootings. It's probably the fact that people in your game who are based on real people die. They probably think you're fantasizing about them dying because you don't like them and want to kill them. But the fact that the people in your game either asked for this or approved it and know all about it makes it totally different from the fantasy hit-lists that some disturbed people make and which they might actually try to carry out. They're panicked, and you have to suffer for it. But I can't imagine that the psychologists or whoever is administering the tests will decide that you actually have any problems.

[DarkFlare89]

Well on Monday I missed school to go do 'testing'. Me, my mom and aunt went. We got a bit lost trying to find the place but we made it. The pychologist was 25 minutes late, but to kill time me and my family just talked. Then the lady came. We talked...I mean there wasn't much to say. I explained my videogame in detail (my aunt said that I used so many big-words that I should have been the pyschologist ) and then after we went to eat lunch. She asked some questions and that was that. I went to school today so apparently it wasn't anything bad. The lady asked about, 'Why do charecters who move away (in real life) have to die instead of just 'disappearing' or getting 'lost'

Now, first of all, when you play a game, do you really think the player will actually believe that the person they just played for, for 20+ hours got 'lost' in a dust storm as ther final ending I mean the storylines are in depth because certain charecters have to die and others to regain their honor by attacking the slayer and etc. Hello, I want the game to sell and make money, not making a 'My Little Pony'.

And lovingly she says at the end that she believes video games are 'mindless' and a waste of time that can be best spent elsewhere. Her three children don't play games (11, 8 & 5). That's all fine and dandy, but your three cents wasn't necessary since didn't I just finish saying that I want making video games to be my future? Eh, she said the 'no offence' part but still, you could say it better than 'video games are mindless' >.<

Anyways, I returned to school today. Everyone was having panic attacks that I was out yesterday because I haven't been out of school in 7 years so people were like John WTF happened to you?!?! And I told them that the administration denied me access back to school and I told them the whole spiel. Apparently, my civics class didn't do a convention because of my absense and many things were pushed back in other classes. I didn't know me being out would cause people so much shock Anyways I told my science, english, spanish, civics (etc) teachers, 40+ charecters in my videogame, and my counciler about what happened. They are ALL disgusted with what occured and said they went too far.

My English teacher said we live in the McCarthy era, where poets, artists and the intellectuals are looked down upon because they have thoughts different than others. And anyone who speaks there mind or thinks differently then what the 'system' allows is oppressed. She says that my era is the most strictest one of them all. (20's were free, 30's were free, 40's were not (WW2), 50's were not (Korea), 60's were not (civil rights), 70's were not (Vietnam), 80's were free, 90's were free (for the most part), 00's were not (paranoia 101). That's basically the overview of what she said.)

So yeah, many people are telling me to sue the school Hehe, I didn't know THAT many people felt so positively about my video game. Heh they want to show their children that they were cool back in the days. So yeah...people said I should continue to work because they are all okay with it. I still don't know how the admid feels. They didn't even talk to me. I went to my counciler and said I'd like my original back. Hopefully I'll get some closure tommarrow.

Keeping y'all posted

[unicorn07]

Glad to hear your back at school!! And that everyone was disgusted. Its great you have so many people behind you, beside the adminstration, your school sounds like it has a lot of awesome people in it.

Hope you get your original papers back.

And your English teacher is SO right!! I read an article several months ago about School Newspapers, and one person said people who work for the School Newspapers have the same and/or less rights(speech wise) of a Chineses Newspaper -- that right there is scary!

I've heard A LOT of stories about people being arrested or looked down on because of there thoughts....and this is the US for crying out loud.

To me, the US isn't in its greatest moment at this present time.

[Robynn]

There is no more First Amendment rights in the US. Hasn't been for years, and John's little drama proved it, once again. *sigh* It sucks that humanity has degraded so far as to feel we have to go to such lengths to be safe. *sighs again*

[EvenInDeath46]

Wow John. The administration really went TOO FAR with this one. It's great to hear that so many people are behind you with your video game. Just keep on working on your dream and don't let little mishaps like this stop you.

[nyohah]

I'm glad most of your school is behind you on this. And to anyone who says video games are mindless. Some video games are mindless. Ones like the one you plan to make are more like books or films that you get to interact with than some mindless violence. Does this psychologist deny her children books and films? I think not. Video games can increase your problem-solving skills if you come across a challenge that takes some thinking (if you don't just look up the answer online). And they increase hand-eye coordination.

[DarkFlare89]

Well on Wedendsay I had gotten back my video game papers. They said I have their blessing and can work on it when ever and how ever I want just as I was before, (I was like, well gee thanks for the okay) and gave me a complementary folder for my troubles . I also requested they give it back to me the way they took it...they lost the clip that came with it...so they gave me three to compensate. Heh. Then the period after, I got an unneccessary visit from the counciler from Monday, so that I can meet 'another' social worker just in case I need to talk. I'm like...hmmm, about 17 people tell me if I ever need to talk, I should talk to them, huh 18's the number now. And I was sort of not in the mood to be there since I do NOT like getting out of classes and missing important things to do pow-wow with pyscho anlysis people >.<

Speaking of missing, on Monday I missed a grand portion of my lab. So on Thursday Morning & Study Hall and Friday Morning I came into Science to get my lab finished. I think my chemistry teacher was impressed by my dedication. Although, my group only finished 2 trails (one girl. the boy did nothing. He got a zero anyways ) and I did 4 but that's okay as long as it got done. Then I saw a portion of my school's play, West Side Story, an adapted version or something like that. It was nice. I did good on my Civics stuff and today I took the SAT's at my school from 7:45 to 1:20. I saw some people who went to different schools in middle school. I didn't feel to happy when they didn't say hello. I know they acknowledged me since I did give stare a while until our eyes would meet but meh. Then I worked for 7 hours. Heh, I got another job offer from a pharmacy. First it was Staples (who said no when I applied in Sept before I got my job) and now CVS (who did the same). So they have to suffer with their actions of the past now

[EvenInDeath46]

^ I wish I could work with someone like you for my science labs. At least the girl actually did something. My partners do NOTHING, and I always have to do the work by myself. They were supposed to finish up a lab while I went on vacation, but they didn't. One of the kids just brought it home, forgot about it, and was just lazy for the remainder of his Spring Break. We got a zero on it because of his laziness. Now I have a low grade in science, which I am not happy about at all. I hope my teacher can maybe excuse me from the assignment, since I wasn't there. She probably won't care though. I could also say I worked with another group even though that's a lie. She's old and forgetful and can be quite gullible at times.

[DarkFlare89]

Alright, alright. I might as well ask for some advice. Boredum and manica are starting to be a real pain in the royal end and I have 30 minutes to kill before work <_< .

So here has been my life this week:

On Friday (today) is the day of the Junior Prom and, no surprise, I'm not going. Throughout this week I've had, not only extremely annoying but also nosy, people (which includes teachers too) ask me if I am going to the stupid thing, to which I respond no...(they of course ask why, probably so they can either pity me or they just be nosy little...I'm not even going to describe them). And I say, I got to work (or if I'm exceptionally pissed off, I end up saying, 'Who'd go with me? Yeah that's what I thought. No one') So this week I've been going from extreme lethargy, to extreme manica, to extreme euphoria like some sort of Bi-Polar episode or something.

For example, yesterday I was having a really crappy day because nosy people were bothering me more than necessary and when people walk, GOD KNOWS, slowely in the hallways to which makes me late for class (yet I digress...), and one moment I was feeling really crappy (manica), but then a saw my crush. All of a sudden, sudden euphoria kicks in and I become really happy. (Apparenly my crush put in an application for my job, so I'll be seeing more of that *da love*). My crush is going with some fool to the prom, which doesn't bother me that much since I can tell they don't even like each other (some nonsense, 'let me be seen with a senior' crap of teenage mentalitiy that makes me irked and ill) but ah well. At least I talked to my crush twice this week (better than most weeks).

And now here I am today. My day in school was alright, but I dunno, I guess I'm feeling lonely...again...for the ba-jillionth time because (I dunno, teenage longing I suppose? Random bulit up 3 years of infatuation coming to full impact? Who in the hell knows...)

And...to top off, I work Friday, Saturday, Sunday (probably. not to sure), and Monday. And also a Spanish Project, a Pyschology & Lit Project, a Pyschology Test and English Homework to do. So what if we get Memorial Day (Monday) off? I won't be in a drunken stupor and partying all night like the rest of my peers. (And don't think I didn't tell my teachers that when they said 'oh poor you, you won't have much of a weekend huh?' Yeah no duh you morons) Not that I want to be drunken mind you, but it would be nice to do something. Meh, maybe they'll all get sunburn and then a thunder storm will rain on their parade.

Well, at least there won't be too many customers if it rains. *shrugs* Maybe I'll call to go to work on Sunday to go to customer service -_- whatever.

EDIT: Just came back from work. I'm in a really great mood. No wonder I love my job so much, it makes me in such a real nice mood. Perhaps it's just my school that irks me >.<

[stratlady]

^^^Well, I am glad to see that you find your job more exciting than you school John. That way you can get motivated about something.

Huh, I don't really get where you are asking for advice into this whole thing. lol Either way, just a quick note. If boredum and manica (), really annoys you, try to check what environmental cues catalyze these moods.

In other words, try to figure out what situations influence your mood. Whenever you'll know these, you'll be more able to control your emotions because you'll be able to anticipate which situations affect you and how.

[Robynn]

I wish if it rained people wouldn't come to where I work. It seems to trigger the crowds...got nothing else to do since it's raining, let's go shopping at the grocery store. We're being HAMMERED this weekend, in the deli. Today could go either way...either the people who've left for the weekend are done, and the ones not leaving arent' coming until tomorrow, OR, it'll be just as busy as it has been. Tomorrow and Monday will be insane...THEN I get a day off. 6 days in a row of closing. Right now, I can't feel my fingers due to the spams in my back and neck...yay me. 3 more days, then I get a day off....then 2 days, then another day off (Friday, so at least I'll get to see Pirates!)...then I don't know when my next day off will be. *sigh*

[stratlady]

*sigh* I am having such a bad day. Mostly 'cuz it makes me feel crappy, but isn't why bad days are bad days anyway? Anyway.

Today I learned that my exam is next week, wednesday. I though it was the week after. I am freaking out about it, because I've got at least 3 readings of 30 pages to do, but I expect the whole thing to be more like 5 readings. Then I need to learn all this stuff honestly, as much as I enjoy the course, I have trouble understand everything.

Adding to this that I gotta write a 5 pages essay based on 2-3 of these readings for the week after. I really have no idea how I'll manage all this. 'cuz I still need to come to class every damn freaking day because the class really help me understand the main points of the essays.

And then, there is my gramma who keeps waking up every night (last night: 2 AM and 5 AM) and asking if there is anybody around because she has no idea where she is, how she got there and she wants to leave or get up or something.

And then I got to meet the TA today, and it made me feel really inadequate socially. Geez I can't have a normal conversation at time with pple, and I end up feeling ackward and all.

I can't wait for this month to be over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay, you english native pple, I've got a question for you. How do you close a convo in English? Sounds stupid, but I can't figure out how to do this in a normal situation.

Saying just "bye" sounds cold, but saying "see you later" doesn't sound like something I'd say to a strangers. So, what else can I say?

[DarkFlare89]

stratlady said:

Okay, you english native pple, I've got a question for you. How do you close a convo in English? Sounds stupid, but I can't figure out how to do this in a normal situation.

Saying just "bye" sounds cold, but saying "see you later" doesn't sound like something I'd say to a strangers. So, what else can I say?

This is what I say to the strangers at my job (given some are very situational, but eh I'll post them all anyways )

Have a nice day/night/afternoon/weekend/life/existance
Take care
Come back again
Its been nice talking to you/all of you
Good luck
Feel better/get well/get better
Bye y'all/good bye everyone
Talk to you later/y'all later
See ya/see you!

You're talking about conversation-wise endings right? Cause all's you need is to make sure you say 'bye' with a smile. (I usually wave and say 'bye-bye' at my job. That usually does the trick)