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Post by simon on Apr 16, 2007 13:51:23 GMT
Emma's left. Jussie cried, and cried. We came home and Jussie cried herself to sleep. At the Airport Jus held Emma so tight we had to remind her to let go. She saw Emma and her mother leave through the gates and She just cried and was shaking, I had to hold her up. She insisted we wait til the plane had taken off before we left. 45 mins later we left. She Cried the whole trip home, and when we got home she crawled into bed and Cried herself to sleep.
She'd changed her mind, She kept saying she didn't wanna send her away, She begged for us to cash in the ticket. I made her send her, I made her follow through. She told me she hated me, and She hated herself. I couldn't comfort her or Tell her it'd be okay. this was the worst morning i have ever had.
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Post by stratlady on Apr 16, 2007 14:51:55 GMT
Awwwww this was so sad to read. That made me all tearful.
It just seem like one of those time where words just aren't enough...
I am so sad about this situation guys. My heart goes out to you both, but especially for you Jus.
*give a big bear hug to Jus* Just don't give up Jus. You do all this for Emma and you said it yourself, that it was the best thing to do. Don't give up!!!!
*hug Jus back again*
I wish I could be there for you right now Jus. Suck that I am miles away.
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Post by Robynn on Apr 16, 2007 16:44:37 GMT
Go get her and make her read this!
Juss...you KNOW it was the correct decision to make. I know you'll miss her more than life itself, but how do expect to take care of her after surger? How do you expect Simon to take care of both of you? Simon has to work and take care of you. You know that it's a temporary thing, and she's coming back home as soon as you are well enough to take care of yourself. You've admitted to being selfish in this matter, and saying that you hate Simon is a bit on the selfish side. He only did what YOU asked him to do. This is a very difficult time for everyone, not just you, and we've had this discussion. Now get your ass out of bed, and to the counselor to help you deal with all the guilt and hurt you're going through now, so you can heal better and faster after the surgery. That's an order! And if you won't do it yourself, Simon has my permission to pick your ass up and take you there, kicking and screaming. For real though, go do what you need to do to stay ALIVE ( and you know that's not an exageration) and take care of your babies (yes Simon, I mean you). Your mom will take good care of Emma for now, but she is in NO way Emma's mum, and will never take your place in her life. Don't give up now. You've come too far to give up now.
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Post by simon on Apr 17, 2007 0:20:42 GMT
Alright. So after a worried phonecall to the Hospital Therapist, he Agreed to see her, Justine however refused to go anywhere, So he agreed to come out to the house, As the stress could have been detromental to her health. When he arrived, She agian refused to talk or even acknowledge that he was there. He told her that she had two choices here 1) she spoke to him now and he'd go or 2) He'd admit her to the hospital, and she'd have no contact with the outside world including myself and Emma until her surgery, he also told her that he'd have her forcefully removed if she refused. She conceded and asked if i was getting out of this. He told her no. We had a very intense 3hr session. There were tears and yelling and i am not ashamed to admit that i was doing them both. He left but not before telling us he'd see us in three days, as a couple and Justine tomorrow. Things have been better since we went out walking and just spent time together. I hope this continues. i really do.
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Post by stratlady on Apr 17, 2007 2:24:52 GMT
I am so relieved to hear this Simon.
Today I kept thinking about Jus and how she was doing.
And you did really great in calling the therapist...so many people don't do anything and just wait for thing to get better.
You guys don't give up. No matter how hard it is, just fight for your happiness, for your couple, for being the best parents Emma can ever have.
My prayers and thoughts are with you 3. *hug*
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Post by simon on Apr 18, 2007 14:02:06 GMT
Okay Jussie is doing well. She now wear an identity bracelet It's a medic alert bracelet, it has the info about her condition, it's from Australia But I rang 911 and they said they know what they are so it's good she is wearing it. We sent a few pics through the cell phone to Justine's Mom thought i'd share here Her mood hasn't improved a hell of alot but she is trying. We've been taking walks. here's my fave pic I took on one of our walks. She took her jacket off for this and was freezing. lol but i love it, She even smiled Anyways she's taking a break from the internet for a few days. She needs A time out from it. She'll be back and is doing well.. Thanks so much for all your wishes and prayers. Simon
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Post by Robynn on Apr 18, 2007 19:33:14 GMT
she looks great. tell her I said so! take her to dinner....as in pick her up, place her in the car, and take her to one of her favorite places (or types of food, since you've probably not had a chance to really go out yet).....and spoil her tonight. you'll both have fun, just like on the walk you had the other day.
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Post by simon on Apr 22, 2007 1:21:00 GMT
Well I've just returned from the hospital, Justine had another Grand Mal Seizure this morning in the mall. She was Shopping and I'd walked away, When i returned there were a few shop assistants around her and she was seizing, They'd put her out of harms way and were keeping an eye on her, They'd called the paramedics and we went to the Hospital. They know her, and were very quick to do whatever they had to do, She's staying in overnight, at least or maybe a few days. I dunno but she's ok
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Post by Robynn on Apr 22, 2007 17:33:36 GMT
Give her our love. I'm glad she's ok. That was one of her worst fears, so she's in my prayers!
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Post by jussie on Apr 22, 2007 23:50:22 GMT
I know it's been awhile posting on FOI, and for that I'm sorry. I needed a time out, no watching TV or screens for long periods of time, so i'd check the emails, and get off the PC. I'll Admit i haven't even checked FOI. But i just wanted to get on and Say I am Ok, I'm tackling all my issues one day at a time, one problem at a time. I haven't Smokied or drank for a while. I've been Tempted, but i haven't Given in.
It gets harder everyday, knowing the OP gets closer, But Simon and The therapist are fantastic, Anyway i am gonna go, Simon has run a bubble bath so i'm gonna go spend time with him
Love to you all
Juss
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Post by stratlady on Apr 23, 2007 0:04:18 GMT
^^^That's alright Jus.
I don't think any of us will get mad at you for not posting here. We know you've got lots to think about.
I think that once in a while, it does help to get away from the screens and computers. I don't know about you, but I find it relaxing. Good luck with all.
I'll be sure to have a special prayer for you may 15.
Thanks for keeping us updated.
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Post by jussie on Apr 26, 2007 14:03:24 GMT
today is a bad day. Two petit mal seizures in 15 mins, Simon is staying home, We're going into his office to get a few papers and then going to the ER. Hopefully we'll be able to catch it B4 a Grand Mal ensues. Simon goes on a Business Trip, He tried to get out of it or pay for me to come along but no. I'm really scared that i'll Seize i'll be alone in the house and hit my head or sth, I've already seized in the mall in front of everyone, now i'm afraid of being alone. Anyone live near CT? Wanna come Visit me for a week? Nah kidding it's okay, I'm prolly just afraid of nothing.. anyways we've gotta go..
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Post by Robynn on Apr 26, 2007 17:56:13 GMT
Your fears aren't nothing. If I was near you, I'd spend the week with you, for sure! Can the hospital provide a Hospice worker to come and "play" with you for a while every day. Neighbors that can check on you regularly, that sort of thing? I know you're new to the "hood" but isn't there someone there who can at least check in every now and again to see if you're all right? There's also an alert system necklace for "old" people who live alone...just push a button and it calls the police or parmedics. Can the insurance pay for that and you get it installed quickly? It's call Life Alert, and it's for anyone with life threatening stuff who may not be able to get to a phone when they're in trouble. I wish you could come spend the week with me. You'd only be along in the apartment for an hour, max. I go to work late, and my daughter comes home an hour after I leave for work. Then someone's home the rest of the time. I'd gladly have you over! I'm even experienced in seizures.
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Post by jussie on Apr 27, 2007 11:08:00 GMT
Well you are speaking to an Almost! Dual Citizen of The Us and Australia. In order to get my operation on the 15th. You need to be a citizen. Because I am Married to an American, and i was in the process to becoming a citizen. Simons mate got an emergency hearing of Citizenship on the basis of my health, Basically I NEED to be a Citizen, Or my Health will suffer. After about 30 mins the judge, agreed to fast track my application. So On the 1st of may I will legally be a citizen of The United States Of America.
To answer a few of your questions Robynn. We Do have Neighbours who will check on me, But not often, most of them work, and with my Seizures being so frequent, That wouldn't help me.
We did she about the "Life Alert" System but as I have no warnings of my Seizures and I am getting the operation soon Insurance WILL NOT pay for it. So That's Out!!
Simon has asked his cousin to come and Stay with me I dunno... If not one of his mates offered too. So I will be alright. Thanks so much Robynn.
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Post by Robynn on Apr 27, 2007 12:35:17 GMT
Well, at least people will be around you most of the time. You'll need "you" time as well...so it'll work more than likely. I'm glad you get to be citizen. You can vote! But I'm surprised that you have to be a citizen to get the operation. If you live here, and your husband is one, and his insurance is paying, that's all that should matter (the insurance part), and not citizenship. But the US never ceases to amaze me at the loopholes they make people jump through to get their needs met. The first isn't too far away. You going to have a citizenship party to celebrate?
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