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Post by Robynn on Mar 25, 2007 19:13:26 GMT
I can understand you getting in trouble for the phone, although you weren't using it...I don't know why you would if you were just putting it away, but getting in trouble when your teacher lost your assignments is outrageous. They should have to get it all together for you and give it back to you. I was teaching for a while, remember? So I've been in your teachers' shoes. They seem to be a little hard ass at times.
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Post by snowwhite on Mar 25, 2007 20:37:21 GMT
hmm. well personally i think theres a big notice in the staff room saying " LETS ALL MAKE KEELYS LIFE HELL!!"
well i finished my skirt. its awful spent all day doing it by hand and its just ugly. just been crying lots coz i dont wanna go back but i have to. i swear if one more teacher says anything to me and i havent done anything wrong, im just gonna walk out. i actually cant deal with the stress of it anymore. its making me sooo unhappy, out of school as well.
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Post by Robynn on Mar 26, 2007 0:14:13 GMT
I'm sorry, Keely. Hope it gets better soon. I know what it's like to be a target when you've done nothing wrong. Happens to me every now and then still. I know it sucks. You're getting stronger, though, emotionally, even though you don't realize it. One day, you'll realize that without all of this, you wouldn't be able to handle whatever it is you're having to go through. Life is rough, and doesn't get better, just gets different. Still sucks that we have to get thick skin and all by going through all the shit to get there!
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Post by snowwhite on Mar 26, 2007 14:36:40 GMT
yeah thats true...
well i spoke to my head of year today. and she was cool about it all and said she's going to speak to the Deputy head to see what she should do. and that i have no need to worry about being portrayed as a bad student as i'm " a delight to teach" (she's my english teacher too)
textiles tomorrow though..and i still havent caught up on all my coursework (well i cant exactly do it all in 4 days) and my skirt has just gone soo wrong..
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Post by MissKitty on Apr 2, 2007 5:58:17 GMT
MY GOD!!!!!!!!!! My mother has become so god damn selfish, and she thinks that it is ALL about how SHE fucking feels!!!!!!!
Now she is just doing what she has ALWAYS done in life, and trying to run away from all of her problems instead of sorting them out!!!!!!!!!
I think that I have SERIOUSLY had enough of the bullshit and enough of the nonsense! Running away from your problems is NOT a way to live a life, and she's the one complaining about not having any life of her own!!!!!!!!! To be honest, who's fault is that?
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Post by jussie on Apr 6, 2007 12:09:16 GMT
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Post by snowwhite on Apr 12, 2007 15:54:15 GMT
Get ready for the term *Mountain out of a mole hill* to spring to your mind. But, i need to rant. big time.
Ive just got back from Town, and i saw my ex step dad down there ( the one who was an abusive alcoholic who tried adopting me) And i havent spoken to him since my mam and he got divorced. So yeah, i was in town With Joe, and i saw him and i just looked away and carried on talking to Joe, then he called my name, i turned round and he was like "alright" and waved and smiled at me and then tried starting a conversation with me, and i just carried on walking. I know it doesnt seem like a big deal, and i am probably crying over spilt milk, but everything just came rushing back. He made me happy, for the most part, and when he left he took that happiness with him, and thats when everything started going wrong with me. I dont if it was him leaving that made things in my mind change, or if it was just me growing up and starting to think more. But.. Uhh i dont know how to explain it. It was like seeing that happiness again.. and then the hatrid and anger came barging in. It seems like everytime i begin to move on, something or someone messes with my head again.
And my mam keeps stressing out at me, i never see her because shes either at work, or just out. And i know she has to work, i have no problem with that. and i know she needs social time, i have no problem with that either. its just the fact that on the rare oppurtunity of seeing her, she is constantly yelling at me and stressing at me for absolutely no reason. I know shes stressed and what not, but it doesnt stop it from making me feel crap about myself.
-Rant over-
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Post by Robynn on Apr 12, 2007 19:52:08 GMT
The feelings you have about your step dad are legit. You felt happy when he was around, and you based that happines on him, and then he left. In reality, you were happy because you allowed yourself to be happy...he just happened to be in your life at the time. You can do that again, if you want to, and try at it. It's not as easy as it sounds, especially with all the rest of the stuff going on, but it is possible. I've done it....it's hard, but possible. Sorry about your mom though. I'm sure she doesn't realize that what she's doing is hurting you. Can you ask her for a day with just you and her go do something...mom/daughter time, and do something fun you both would enjoy? Then maybe talk to her about your feelings, in a serious way, without blaming her...just explaining how you feel. She'll put the 2 together, and realize that she's yelling at you too much. I'm sure she's got things she's working on, as a mom, worker, and person, and it's hard to juggle it all around. I'm sure she needs input on how she's doing, but you HAVE to be subtle about it, or an explosion will occur. I statements work...."I feel this when that happens" and stay away from you statements..."I feel this way when you do this"....she'll know you're talking about her actions even if you aren't stating that it's her. And she'll also not be able to say you blame her for everything, since you never said that. How's that sound to you?
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Post by snowwhite on Apr 12, 2007 21:30:04 GMT
That sounds pretty good,about the mam thing. Shes been ok today, saying that, she was out this morning until gone 1am, and then work, did some exercise and is now asleep so we havent really seen each other.
And the thing about allowing myself to be happy. That is so true, and i know i can. But sometimes i feel like i dont want to. And that sounds so awful. But this is what im use to, like a comfort zone, and everytime i allow myself to feel happy, im afraid im leaving myself open to be hurt... or somethings gonna come along and spoil it all, as it happens every time.
ive got a lot of learning and growing to do, for sure.
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Post by Robynn on Apr 13, 2007 4:36:44 GMT
You'll get there. Trust me. Give it time.
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Post by stratlady on Apr 13, 2007 20:15:42 GMT
^^^Yeah, I totally agree. Time is important. ;D
Dear God. Did I had I be the one to go through my gramma's symtpathy speech? Seriously, she was all depressed and crying and all. My mom let her do her thing, and then 'cuz she was a bit better, she went for a shower.
Then I go check out on my gramma and she's all me telling me to tell her something that will make her feel better, and that she needs sympathy and all. Gosh. Hello guilt.
Seriously, we try our best with her, but she makes it so hard...and then in the end, she just makes me feel guilty. It sucks. Not trying to blame my gramma though. She's not trying to be mean or anything. She's just old with all that comes with it.
I guess we're all human after all.
*sigh*
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Post by Robynn on Apr 14, 2007 0:31:51 GMT
shoot. my gramma did guilt trips on purpose. she knew exactly what she was doing. I really think she was being mean on purpose.....but then the illness really took hold, and she stopped being mean to your face, and told stories behind your back. I don't wanna get old. just shoot me!
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Post by snowwhite on Apr 16, 2007 15:48:41 GMT
oh dear school tomorrow >_< wish me luck
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Post by EvenInDeath46 on Apr 16, 2007 18:48:47 GMT
Well, today was my first day back in school after Spring Break. My family planned a vacation to the British Virgin Islands over the course of the break, which made me miss the Thursday before my Spring Break began on Good Friday. On that particular Thursday I missed four tests, which I have to make up within the next few days. One of those tests was for History. Today in History my teacher asked all the people who missed the test to raise their hands, and I did. There were three of us who had to make up the test. So, he told us to follow him to another classroom to make up the test that day! I'm pretty angry over this situation, because I was away down in the Caribbean for my vacation and didn't study or the test at all. Did he expect me to bring my big, fat, and heavy textbook with me on my vacation? My teacher is just lazy and doesn't want to stay after school for students to make up the test. He probably just wants to get out of that place and sit home and watch mindless television for the rest of the night. I would have made up the test tomorrow after school if I had a choice, but apparently that plan didn't work out. I do think I managed to pass the test, but not with flying colors. If he had just let me decide to take the test tomorrow then I probably would receive a very high grade on it. For pulling that little stunt on me and the other two students, I think that he should add a minimum of ten points onto our test scores, just to be fair. That will most likely not occur though. ~EvenInDeath46
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Post by unicorn07 on Apr 16, 2007 20:59:43 GMT
It sucks you had to take it your first day back, but did you know about the test before leaving on vacation? If you did you should have studied, even if your on vacation, it might sound crazy, but a few minutes a day studying can go far!
It sucks most teachers don't stay after school these days, that is a lot easier to take a test then, that way you don't miss that days class events!
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I'm so fucking stressed! I have less then two months before I graduate, I'm moving and I have a 5 page research paper due in several weeks, and I don't even know what to do it on.
UH I can't wait till this maddness stops! I'd be fine if it was one thing, but its several...please April be over, just be over now...and May as well. I'm done with school :/
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